Sunday, August 28, 2005

dAydReAM...

smtimes...i juz hope i am living in a dream. cos i wld be care abt the consequences and do the things i want...hahaz...so maybe it's why i like to daydream sooo much...I dun have worry abt anything...I juz love to fantasize in my own world...guess i was influenced by hong lou meng...cos this week, i am overdosed with the storyline...die...test coming...soo many characters and plots to rmb...haiz...
nothing much happened this week...erm...let me recall if there's any...ah ha...i rmb...i signed up for another cca...can ya guess...it's choir...hahahaz...cos my sch' choir lacks ppl to join a competition in KL...so i went to try(audition)...i think i sang terribly...my pitches are not stable lohz...the teacher was so experienced...her voice was really superb...but mine was yucky...and the most shocking part is...she said i am suitable for soprano! WAT? Sing high notes are not my forte...but she said my high notes are more in pitch...omg...then wat had i been doing in kbox??? i always thought i am more suitable for low notes...haiz... i think i got in as soprano but need some practice...(said by zj)...hahahz..so now have to take good care of my voice...haiz... intense training after promos...CO & Choir...who says we'll gonna be free after promos? no way...
took chem spa this week...omg...everybody got diff values but luckily accuracy is not tested...so dun care lohz...hahahz...as for bio...now is practising skill c & d...report style...yucks... i also took gp compre test (tis week very busy lahz)...first time after sooo many months...compre with AQ...AQ really sux...hmmm...dunno wat my results will be...i cant bear to see...i nvr touch maths tutorial this week...i really felt bad...cos becos of chinese...i neglect my maths...so now...i gonna "kick" chinese away for the time being for maths...btw...3d trigo sux too...u think i have super 3d eyes???
i really like my sch library...cos i can borrow a lot of CDs...hehehz...i managed to borrow hong lou meng from my friends...and i watched it...actually it's not bad...although it is a china production...i think u'll only like it if u read the book 1st...haiz...too bad the male actors are sooo girly...anyway...i borrowed another cd...EDWARD SCISSORSHANDS!!! I wanted to see this movie for a long time already...didnt noe my sch library has it...(to ong: u shld see it...got johnny depp...hahahaz...)...yesh!
there had been tight security in sch lately...causing many problems for students...they will lock up the side & back gates during a certain time...and i always go home at this certain time...ahhh...so troublesome...but i guess sch's safety is still priority...i think i am going back to cchms on teachers' day cos ong they all going back...hmm...good to see some teachers...haiz...dunno wat to type already...cos my tummy is rumbling...gotta eat...hehehz...

CoNtInUe tO dAyDrEaM...i wILL bE tHeRE...

tat's it at 12:04 PM

Sunday, August 21, 2005

mY tImE iS gOne...

OK...i noe i am kinda slow in blogging these few weeks...cos simply no time...now i seemed to realise the real meaning of "time is precious"...i mean in the past, i had the mentality that time is actually quite abundant...ya only when u have nothing to do...hahah..but when u have loads of stuff to clear...u will think otherwise...i juz hope time can stop and let me enjoy as long as i want...then i can do some preparations to face the reality of education...argh...i think i am going nuts...as wat i knew from my pw research...students have stress not becos of the increasing load of work only...it's the short deadline tat make us go crazy...for me, i always believe that to produce good work...we need to spend a reasonable amt of time...however, for now...time has become a luxury...everything must be FAST...i am such a slow paced person...how to catch up...aiyohz...
firstly to say...bio spa= DIE...i made a lot of mistakes...never draw proper table...have wrong calculations...nver call teacher to check on my microscope, my enemy...but...i did feel relieved when everything was over even though i knew i wld flunk...for microscope, i actually manage to see something...so i began to disperse my hatred for it...hehez...now i have to worry for CHEM spa...
wanted to borrow hong lou meng disc 1...but the "dunno who" haven returned the cd...so no choice...i borrowed the "Children's Heaven"...u noe...the movie abt the shoe...like jack neo's "pao ba hai zi"...i personally prefer the original version than jack neo's...cos it is more touching...hmmm...maybe next one i will borrow the "Life is beautiful"...tat's also a good movie..
HSK was difficult...i went for the practise session...actually the standard was juz higher by a bit compared to last time...but once again...it's the time constraint..we have to do qns in a short period of time...eg..25qns ,25mins...including reading time...and the listening compre...cnt even hear properly...esp the part when all the accents come in...wat the heck...have to go and dig ears...
haiz...nvr go library with ong they all...cos have to do pw...we actually celebrated ashyura's bdae at long john...i can see she is very touched...hahahz..thanx to jasprit's idea...we manage to discuss some pw details...wr...but i have to leave early as to attend my cousin's(Declan) bdae...it's a barbecue party...as usual..i ate a lot..die...gonna add up to my weight!!! calories...argh...but it was quite fun...
last but not least...juz wanna say...i had a weird dream yesterday...about vampires, queens and kings...so scary yet interesting...hahahahz...no wonder i refuse to wake up till noon today...hahahaz...shucks...i have to go have lunch and do my homework!!!

tat's it at 1:05 PM

Saturday, August 13, 2005

UnIqUe Me?

"i'm really fine...ok...!" found myself repeating this sentence to my frenz around me...guess my previous entry was a "hit"...hehehz...juz joking...i wanna take this opportunity to announce that I am ok now...cos i got my thoughts all sorted out...maybe i showed too much negativity...may be due to stress and unpredictable mood swings bah...after reading all the encouraging words that you guys left...i think i'll be all geared up to face my life with a big big SMILE...hehez...cos life's short...there's many things tat i want to accomplish...cnt be too despondent...or else how to be a listener & supporter to my frenz...hmmm...making frenz is easy but finding true frenz is hard...so i shld be contented and let nature takes its course...hehez..have u heard the song "Uniquely You" sang by Joi Chua & Wendi Koh?(I bought the single!!) Hahahz...hope more and more ppl can discover the "unique me"...so...watch out...the wacko & funny me will be back...
yEsH! i finally got my hands on the animation movie tat i wanted to borrow in sch library...the title of the jap movie is "Whisper of the Heart" aka "Mimi wo Sumaseba"(check it out)...i watched it and it's not bad...cos it's a love story(sort of)...hahahaz...but too bad the love element is not strong enough for me...ppl who noe me...they noe i loved romance stories tat involve triangle love relationships with many obstacles...hehehz...to me: love shld be dramatic...so to keep the feelings strong and still burning...hmmm...a view from a "love expert"...listen at your own risk! anyway, i borrowed another cd..."Grandma & her ghosts"...it's actually a heart-warming story...about a grandma(priestress) & her grandson...initially, the grandson disliked his grandma...felt tat she is weird & spooky...but later on...their relationship brewed...how come lehz? hahaz..no spoilers here...i think the next on my borrowing list will be hong lou meng!
went back to cchms interact club installation ytd...glad to step on the grounds of chung cheng...the place tat gave me beautiful memories...however...now...i cld not feel a sense of belonging anymore...i seemed sooo "out of place"...ong & hui had the same feelings...maybe cos we are not part of the sch anymore...as the past will always be the past. Haiz...ong, hui and I were late for the installation...they started very early this year...then not long after...it's refreshment time...hehez...and of cos...i ate a lot...the chicken wings and bee hoon are very yummy lohz...i juz want to take the all trays back home...hahahaz...(to ong: the weight loss plan will have to be delayed...:) i was happy to see the juniors and the ex committee...rachel, glad & xinying were still cool...mrs yeo still looking great, alvin and weiding---as usual---the funny ppl...hehehz...special mention to ong & hui...thanx for dropping hints tat i will break the golden pig...argh...hahahz...careless me! :P
"ho ho HA HA HA...try to laugh like tat...trust me...it's really funny...(to yuzhi: a very Very BIG thank you!) went to experience laughter therapy at SRJC today...bringing yuzhi & my bro with me...there were indeed many kinds of laughter...very interesting...and i managed to catch all in film...u really can laugh naturally cos laughing is really contagious...manage to get our interviews done too...thanx to mary & lynette of Hougang RC!
"hmmm...this time is a long entry...got loads to write mahz...hope my life story could get u hooked up at all times...:)

tat's it at 5:52 PM

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

LoSiNg mYseLf...

"jie...u got no life arh? always never see u hang out...sooo unsociable!"...tis is wat my bro told me...kinda sad by this remark...cos memories kept flowing back...the times when I was quite popular with all my good friends around me...crapping & gossiping...but now...i seemed to be losing myself...cos almost everyday...i'm hiding my true self...and tis true self is at the verge of vanishing...haiz...who can save me? i really had no life...no excitement...it's like sooo sian...my mum always nagged at me...saying tat jc only 2 yrs...shld pia...but...hello...i cnt even pia for a whole day...2 yrs? forget it...smtimes...i really envy my old frens...reading their blogs made me realise how boring my life is...cos they had a bunch of outgoing buddies...many interesting happenings...it's not tat i dun have...but jus cldnt find the "connection with my frens" tat i am seeking for...my true self chose to remain discreet when i'm with them...tat's nothin i can do...smtimes...i juz hate my bro...cos i'm jealous...y he can be popular in class? i'm juz like a small fly in class...i miss the feeling of being appreciated...maybe tat's y i like to stay at home...becos only at home...i can be myself...i can remain in my own fantasy....i'm losing my drive...haiz...
forgive me if i dun say hi to you when i see you...it's not on purpose...cos i dun wan to be ignored...get wat i mean? i bet many of us do meet with situations when u say hi to the person and he/she simply did not noe ur existence...so i decided not to make the first move...hahaz...i am a shy gal...so dun think tat i am "tao" hor...
i really want to go and watch the ndp...but always failed to get the tickets...partly...my parents had no intention of bringing my bro and me to go and watch...they prefer to stay at home and watch...(no need to squeeze mahz...)but i believe tat the atmosphere will be much better at padang & the heartlands...and i want to get the goodie bag!!! last time...i used to see the real firewrks at my old condo...cos i live in the 10th floor...the view was really good...but now...i stay on the ground floor...cnt even see anything...so sickening...hmmm...i decided to go and watch ndp next year...i'll try my very best to get the tickets...so who wants to go with me next year??? :)
i think i'm really moving house soon...maybe by the end of tis year...cos my parents actually paid the deposit of the house they chose...the house is bigger than my present house but the location really sux...i'll still be staying around the same area...juz a bit further down...and the bus stop is like soooo far from the house...have to walk a long route...arGH!!! the only gd thing is tat the house will undergo renovation...hehehz...i can renovate my own room...cool...i juz have the perfect design in mind...hehez...
hmm...have to blog off now...need to study for 2 tests (chem&bio!!)...dun worry abt wat i typed earlier...u noe...my recovery rate is high... :P
*HaPpY bELaTeD bIrThDaY to SiNgApOrE!!!
*recently...i am crazy tis song..."No Strings Attached" by NSync...really very nice...shld hear it... :)

tat's it at 11:36 PM

Friday, August 05, 2005

wHAt ThE hEcK!

*#%@!#%*! felt like cursing somebody...argh! on my way home juz now, saw a grp of guys standing at an open balcony of a house (near mine...) i find some "bo liao"...cos they were trying to persuade one of their buddies to climb over the gate to get in the house. They refused to open the gate for the poor guy...all of them stared at me as if i am an intruder...of cos i ignored them and went into my house...i was at garden, smsing when i noticed they all staring and laughing at me again...even heard someone whistle...feel like slapping their faces...what the....hEcK!
wanted to borrow hong lou meng's vcd and a jap anime frm the sch library but someone made this move b4 me...how cruel! I've been eyeing the vcds for sO long already...thinking to borrow them today and can use the holiday time to watch...now...all my plans are ruined! Damn!
y am i soooo rough? my sch skirt's pocket slit is getting bigger...thanx to my big butt...hahahaz..beg my mum to sew it back...but she said..."sorry...i dunno how..." it will cost money to get the professionals to fix it...will i spend this kind of money...NAH! then...my handphone pouch...bought for less than 1 week...realised there is a slit opening...thanx to my rough handling...guess it wld not be long for me to buy a new one...sock material hp pouch is really much better....!
enough of complaining...let me give a review of wat happened in sch this week...1st...taking of cLass photos!! It is quite fun cos we took in grps and one class photo...we also took out our hps and went snap snap snap! hehez...juinn and sylvia really look like newly-weds in the photos...cnt wait to see...hahahaz...i retook NAFA (all 5 items & 2.4km run!!) this week...so now my whole body ache like hELL...especially my legs...lucky me...i manage to pass (sch standard: silver) ALL this time!! YEAh!!CLAP for me!!! hehez...failed incline & SBJ last time...this time...able to do 6 incline pull ups...and jump 160cm (thanx to my pe teacher)...my sit ups and sit&reach improved...my 2.4km run deproved lehz...maybe nvr exercise much liaoz...but heng heng still pass...:) so i am free frm afternoon PE now!!!!!
Today juz got national day tee...the sch gave us all free (national day present to be exact...)...the design is cool...ppl started to wear them once they got the tee liaoz...all of us will get to wear it on mon for the celebration...heard that we are going to have games and performances...!
haiz...had been a tiring week for me...cos of NAFA...so didnt do much hmwrk...juz too sleepy to get my hands moving...but looking forward for the national day holiday...can relax and do homewrk (owe my teacher hmwrk arh!!)...but again...have to study for upcoming tests...2 tests straight after the holiday lehz...argh! humph! wat the heck again!!